Mentally Overloaded Mom…

I am tired. Many of us moms are tired. Not just 'take a nap' or 'grab a cup of coffee' tired...But 'mentally exhausted' tired. I always thought maybe it was just me getting older blah blah blah, but as I talk with some of my women friends I realize its all of us. When did…

Happy New Year to…..me.

First of all, Happy New Year! A new year, fresh start and a chance to reinvent. Like many people, I love the thought of having a word for the year. Here it is the middle of January and I am finally settling on one. I have been racking my brain and keep coming back to…

Madeline…

Madeline, 22 When my mom passed away in May of 2020, a part of me died too. The part of me that enjoyed writing and putting my feelings into words. I got that from her. As a young girl she would always write me notes, letters and tell me her feelings - whether good or…

(un)happy holidays….

I think we can all agree that 2020 has been overall a very disturbing and painful year for all types of reasons. Everywhere you go, anytime something new happens or there is disappointment you hear people say "Well, 2020!" I am not however dismissing the beautiful events of this crazy year...births, weddings and for most…

Four years later….

The following is a blog I wrote in 2016 the day after the election...I wanted to revisit it and see if my feelings or thoughts have changed. They unfortunately did not. I still have the same concerns as I did after that election. But even more feelings and concerns. I was willing to give Trump…

25 things…

Funny how a random text conversation can take you to a whole new space in your head and heart. This past week I was complaining about being on this text thread with like 10 other people. Just don't love a thread with people on it I barely know or talk daily with. Seriously not a…

Unexpected Healing…

Grief I have found is such an interesting emotion, state of being and journey. The dictionary defines it as a deep sorrow usually connected with a death. It is not just an emotion, but a place of being. With the loss of my mom just 3 months ago - my grief is ever changing...one day…

A letter to 2020….

Dear 2020, This year I find myself asking "What's next?" - when I really need to wave my white flag and say "I quit! I surrender! I give up". You have been the worst year in my 51 years of being. Wait, apologies...there were some new babies born to our family and a family member…

Memorial weekend…

While Memorial Day weekend is about honoring those who have died while serving our country...our Memorial weekend was about honoring our mom. This is usually the weekend we go up to my sister's cabin...put the dock in, get the boat, clean and set up for summer...We did just that but without our mom and yet…

Bittersweet goodbye…

When you can't have a traditional funeral service due to a pandemic, you make due and you find a new way to celebrate and say goodbye to a loved one. Yesterday we did just that. Our family of 13 gathered at the funeral home - no social distancing. We had a service that my mom…